Holy crap, its almost VAlentines day!!!! This year is like going by soooooooo fast, I feel like I'm missing it fly by. I'm just really hyper right now, and I don't care to see my previous journal mocking me everytime I open up dA. So yeah, moving on and waiting to see what happens.

BUT! I hope you guys all have an awesome Valentines Day, if its just hanging out with your signifigant other (i totally butchered spelling that word) or if it's hanging out with some of your best friends!!!!!!!! Eat something pink and chocolatey too!!!! Wow... I'm going to be sooo fricken hyper on Valentine's Day, nooo joke. But I'll have soccer to keep me preoccupied, which is good.

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

They say that death is the easy way out, the path a lot people take when they feel that they can't go on... Life and living is harder I guess, depends on who you ask. And the things that don't kill you, but make you feel like your going to die, will only make you a stronger person in the end. But people don't wait for life to get better. If theyre serious, they do it on a whim, and don't consider things.

And when one of your best friends/boyfriend says he's going to kill himself, it just drives that point home. And I think theres people (like me for example) who will do their damnest to try and dissuade someone from making that decision. You remind them of the people who care about them, even if the person doesn't believe it, and you remind them of the positives in life. And how saying your going to commit suicide isn't something to be taken lightly, even if its something like 9 out of 10 people who say they will do it, don't actually do it.

Staying up half the night, trying to list the goods in life to someone who so desperately wants to end their life is hard, especially when you care about that person more than a lot of things, despite the fact they treated you like shit sometimes. HAnging up is even harder... with the feeling that even though you said all you could, they still might take the plunge. Along with the fact that they've had a knife in their hand the whole time, although its hard to kill yourself with a knife. Sleeping might be near impossible, eventually drifting off in your tear-stained pillow. And waking in the morning, not knowing if what you said helped at all. Not knowing whether theyre still dead or alive... When you try to talk to them, and get just a whole bunch of shit thrown in your face... That's hard to deal with.

My friend said, 'Love destroys the weak'. That seems to be sooo fucking true right now. I'd consider myself weak in that aspect. When someone says they love you over and over, and you believe them, and you you feel comfortable with them, its great. But when they say that, and send text messages asking girls to hook up with him, and lieing to your face, and then to top it all off, they accuse you of cheating on them with another of your friends. The fact that they never trusted you is bad enough, and when they set this up so they can have an exscuse to break up with you since you're not fucking him, then yeah, theres a problem. But when you still love them, despite everything, it makes me feel sickened and disgusted with myself... And when they say they love you too, you want to believe it, but you're just at a lost for what to do....

Holy shit, I haven't done a journal in months. Mainly cause I've been to lazy too. Got this from ~BrindleTail ...

A-Z Tag
A
- Available: haha, no.
- Age: 14
- Annoyance: severe cold
- Animal: there are many

B
- Beer: nasty tasting stuff
- Birthday: March 14, 1994
- Best Friends: Katie, Kellee, Kelsey, Paulette, Margaret, Annemarie, Zach
- Body Part on opposite sex: ... no comment
- Best feeling in the world: Seeing my friends after I haven't seen them in months
- Blind or Deaf: probably deaf
- Been in Love: Yes
- Been on stage?: sadly, i hated it

- Believe in Magic: Yes
- Believe in God: I do to sleep at night
- Believe in Santa: I believe in the spirit of Santa

C
- Candy: oh myg god yes!!
- Color: lime green
- Chocolate/Vanilla: depends what we're talking about
- Chinese/Mexican: Mexican
- Cake or pie: pie
- Continent to visit: australia totally
- Cheese: ALL

D
- Day or Night: Night.
- Dance in the rain?: hell yeah
- Do the splits?: haha, no.

E
- Eggs: omelet
- Eyes: sort of a blueish-greenish-greyish color. depends on the day
- Everyone's got: someone
- Ever failed a class?: No
F
- Full name: Reilly Tempest (blech) J.
- First thoughts waking up: "what time is it?"
- Food: anything but seafood or liver and the like

G
- Greatest Fear: I dont have a one greatest fear. I've got many.
- Goals: To be what I want to be
- Gum: Citrus
- Get along with your parents?: My mom and I are cool usually, my dad is a different story... We're okay I guess.
- Good luck charm: don't have one

H
- Hair Color: Dark brown with a little red in the sunlight
- Height: 5'6"
- Happy: When I'm with friends
- Holiday: Christmas
- How do you want to die: happy and painless

I
- Ice Cream: love it!!
- Instrument: haha, me play an instrument? your kidding.

J
- Jewelry: various bracelets that don't really count as jewelry
- Job: i can't get one yet,

K
- Kids: Jeez, I'm not sure.
- Kickboxing or karate: Karate
- Keep a journal?: No, not really

L
- Longest Car Ride: Driving from CA to Tennessee
- Love: Animals, sports, friends, guys
- Letter: Z maybe.
- Laughed so hard you cried: Too many times to count

M
- Milk flavor: uhm.. plain?
- Movies: love them if they have a good story to tell and don't have a bad ending.
- Motion sickness? sometimes
- McD’s or BK: Eww, neither

N
- Number of Siblings: none
- Number of Piercings: ears once
- Number: 14

O
- One wish: for more wishes... i have many
P
- Perfect Pizza: plain cheese
- Pepsi/Coke: ugh, i don't like soda a lot

Q
- Quail: Is state bird of CA

R
- Reason to cry: Extreme pain, emotional or physical.
- Reality T.V.: ugh
- Radio Station: 94.3, 102.1, and 104.5
- Roll your tongue in a circle?: Yeah
- Ring size: I don't wear rings usually. I tend to lose them


S
- Song: Breath or Diary of Jane - Breaking Benjamin
- Shoe size: 8 1/2
- Salad Dressing: Caesar
- Sushi: cucumber rolls occasionally
- Skipped school: Lol, I've missed school, but I don't think it counts as skipping if your parents know.
- Slept outside: hell yeah
- Smoked?: Ugh, hell no. Smells bad, tastes bad probably, and kills you eventually.
- Skinny dipped?: yeah
- Shower daily?: yeah
- Sing well?: no
-Sing in the Shower?: no
- Swear?: haha, yeah.
- Strawberries/Blueberries: Strawberries

T
- Time for bed: 10:00 pm or later
- Thunderstorms: don't really care about them

U
- Unpredictable: not being predictable

V
- Vacation spot: Anywhere

W
- Weakness: Compliments
-Which one of your friends acts the most like you: there's a lot...
- Who makes you laugh the most: There isnt an hour I don't go without laughing...
- Wanted to be a model?: yeah whatever...
- Where do we go when we die?: It depends I guess.
-Worst Weather?: extreme heat
-X-Rays: ? give you radiation poisoning after a while...?
- Ex's: Wouldnt know
Y
-Year it is now: 2008.
-Yellow: sunflowers

Z
- Zoo animal: wolf

LAST PERSON WHO…
1. Slept in a bed beside you? Kellee
2. You went to the mall with? Kellee and Rhett
3. You went to dinner with? Mom and Dad
4. You talked to on the phone? Zach
5. Made you laugh? Kellee and Zach
6. Hugged you? Zach
7. Said they loved you? Zach
8. Held your hand? Zach
9. You spoke with? Kellee
10. You cried over? does laughing so hard you cried count? Me

Dear everyone who wants to do this:

I don't really know how to tell you this, but our romance is over. I think I realized it when your dwarf bit me as you ate a enchilada and I saw you sit on my best friend. I'm sure you're ashamed enough to understand that Extreme HOme Makeover sucks. I'm returning your memories from the military services to you, but I'll keep your mom as a memory. You should also know that I always have felt dirty before our friendship.

Greeting to your freaky family.
-Lillyfeather-

Holy crap, wow. You don't have to do this, I was just bored.

Taken from 's journal

[i]"No offense, but ... People are getting too fake on me . They only want posts, comments, or to see how many friends they can get. So let's see who will actually repost this. This is a test to see who's paying attention. This is a test to see how many people in my friends list actually pay attention to me. Copy and repost in your own bulletin. Lets see who the true friends are and I think I know who you are... Repost this if you are a friend... Don't reply... just copy and paste this in a new bulletin as "Fake Friends.""[/i]